Thursday, October 4, 2007

my life is a constant anxiety attack

Once again, I'm writing instead of working. I have midterm exams tomorrow, 3 to be exact. I spent so long studying in the library today that I used up more than half of my mp3 player's battery power. So now its 9, and I still need to write a fucking lab report. argh.

I just checked my email and found this email from my chemistry professor:

Dear Johanna,
Having now written the exam, I expect to allow the class a little extra time tomorrow. You may start at 6:45 if you wish.
Cheers,
Prof. T.

"If I wish?" Fuck, that man is going to be the death of me. Exams for the rest of the class start at 7:30, and I am allowed a little extra time, so I start at 7. This means I roll out of bed at 6:30 and rush over to the classroom. Now I have to be up by 6, earlier if I want to be presentable (which I don't feel a need to be). This man is seriously insane. His classes are the earliest on campus, and he gives exams earlier than his lectures. And apparently he gets to campus by 6 every morning, meaning he must wake up before sunrise.

Although, one has to be insane to get a Ph.D in Organic Chemistry.

(Disclaimer: Professor. T is the best professor I have ever had, he's just fucking insane!)

Anyway, I was going to start this post with an explanation of the title, but got sidetracked by the email. So, back on track

I have ADHD. I have and anxiety disorder. what do you get when you mix Ritalin with an anxiety disorder and add pressure? A constant anxiety attack. Something in the Ritalin aggravates the anxiety disorder so that whenever I'm on my meds and under stress (Read: all the time) I have a constant sense of anxiousness, with accelerated heart rate, tight feeling in my chest etc. It's not a severe, find-me-in-the-corner-in-the-fetal-position anxiety attack, but its not pleasant. And it sucks.

I was going to write more but I now realize that it is 9:30, I still have to write my lab report, and be up at 6. So that's it for now. I'll be back on Tuesday when I get back from my "midterm break" which is simply Columbus Day weekend, but they have to give us a midterm break, so, hey, why not combine the two?

6 comments:

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