I don't know if anyone is reading this, but right now I don't care. I need to get this out.
A year ago this past Friday my friend Adam died. He was only in my life for 3 months, but I am forever changed.
Adam was paralyzed from the chest down due to a snow mobile accident when he was a teenager. As the title of this blog suggests, I am also physically disabled. Adam and i met while working at a summer camp for disabled kids in Maine. He was everything I wanted to be- outgoing, happy, friendly, courageous. Logic would suggest that someone who was paralyzed in a snowmobile accident would be a somewhat cautious driver. Not Adam, he drove like a madman.
Adam was the perfect example of how everyone, not just people with physical disabilities, should live. He was fearless and never let his physical limitations get in the way of anything. He worked hard to get what he wanted, and never for a moment beleived that he wasn't able to.
During the summer of 2006, a year after I met him, Adam was in and out of the hospital for what I had assumed were minor, non-life-threatening procedures. I knew he was having the common complications such as bed sores and infection, but whenever I talked to his girlfriend it seemed like he was on the road to recovery. He was even gaining some function back in one of his arms.
Then one night in mid-September I checked my email and found an email saying that Adam had passed. I was shocked. How could such a strong person who I admired so much die at 27?
A year later and it seems like everyone has moved on. Our fellow co-workers don't mention him, his girlfriend is dating someone new. But I still think about him. And I don't want to ever stop remembering him. he will always be my inspiration, my hero. He will always be the greatest person I have ever known.
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god couldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
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3 comments:
This is beautiful. I'm sorry that you lost someone you admired.
To have someone leave your life is definitely one of the greatest tragedies, particularly so suddenly. I think that all we can do is remember, exactly like you've done here, and celebrate their significance by telling their story for them.
hiii, so i don't know how you found me (well i guess it's from one of those two other suspects in your blog roll) but i guess i wanted to say hiii.
and that is really awful about your friend... it is terrible, those people you know so briefly who affect you so intensely and then are taken away so quickly. aaand i guess i have to reiterate what crystal says above. what can a person even say? he sounds like he was an incredible person.
Thank you both for the comments.
and yeah, neither of you know me, but I've been reading you blogs which I found after reading Riese's blog, which I found when I needed to know what happened on the L Word, which I became addicted to when I was procrastinating one day.
So yeah, hi!
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